It Was One Of Those Moments!

I remember a time in the presence of the Lord. I was carried away to a place I had never been before. I had the privilege of being touched by His love. It was one of those moments.

He began to reveal to me His mercy and grace. Wow… that You would love someone who had failed You so many times. Though there were hundreds of people around me—people You love so dearly—Your eyes gazed upon me, and Your hands reached for me. Lord, You took the time to listen to the cry of a lonely child.

I was desperate for You and longed to know You with all my heart. You stepped down and made everything around me stand still. In that moment, all my cares began to fade. My hurts were carried away, and fear became a word with no effect. It was Your joy that danced around me. Your peace transferred me into Your gentle arms, and the kisses of Your love melted all doubt.

You swept me off my feet.

I remember thinking, Please… let this moment last. This is where I belong. Right here, right now. There is no other place I would rather be.

It was in Your presence that I heard You say, “What do you desire?” Wanting so much to please You, I responded, “Whatever You desire for me, Lord.” And Your words to me were, “Give Me your heart.”

It was then that I sensed everything within me yielding with great reverence. I felt disappointed in myself and began to contemplate, Lord, I thought I had given You my heart. If I hadn’t given You my whole heart, who—or what—had taken it?

The revelation that You desired my affection began a search within me. I had to find out what had captured my passion if it wasn’t You. Was it my husband? My children? The cares of this world?

You gently brought to my memory: “Love the Lord your God with all your heart.”

In that moment, I realized there was so much more to giving my heart. “Please forgive me, Lord,” I asked. Your ways are higher than my ways. There was so much more to give, so much more to see, so much more to know. What You yearned to do with my heart was endless.

I could think of no one more deserving of my affection than You.

My prayer became:
“Lord, help me give You my heart the way You desire it. Anything I value more than You, let it be dethroned. Jesus, take Your rightful place instead. Organize my affections and put everything in its proper place. I trust You, my Lord.”

So You began to test, prune, purify, and reveal Yourself to me. Even now, I can discern You working within me.

My journey continues deeper than before. I notice my desperation for You has increased, and a new passion is being birthed. There is an urgency stronger than before. I find myself standing in awe of You.

The songs in my heart pour out:

Let the fragrance of my praise fill Your holy place.
Let the fragrance of my worship steal Your heart.
Let me feel Your warm embrace.

I stand in wonder of You, Jesus.

Your Bride,
Olga